postal service

ok u guys
i must admit azzouz this was ...a really smart way of "enhancing" communication
i like it! i hope we all take advantage of this...
so...here goes guys

i hate SUNDAYs...and Mondays..actually right now i seem to hate ALL week days
so why should This one be any different!? fucking Saturdays

i went to rugby practice today ...
yes people i m a rookie for ASU Rugby team
what does that mean? well it means i was recently recruited on the team and i m learning the ways...
usually practice is fun
except this one..was HARD
so much running ...
i swear i keep reminding myself how bad of a shape i m in

perhaps it s the excessive fat in my body
perhaps it s the lack of exercise
perhaps it s a genetic flaw- wishful thinking..

perhaps it s karma?
as u can c the list goes on..
process of rationalization is quite a captivating defense mechanism isnt!?
TO rationalize or NOT to rationalize ...WHO AM I !

ok enough
so rugby practice was hard
i m fat
life is over

honestly though guys i need to get my act together
and lose this weight
i dont know why
it s a matter of self esteem again
and i need to take charge

i saw a documentary about how psychosocial-cultural factors have propagated this phenomenon where women evaluate themselves as Human Beings based on what the scale says
and in a way i think it s true
and so sad
still...it gets to me !!!
yes damn i am admiting to the WORLD-starting with u guys that is...
WEIGHT GETS TO ME!
i feel weak, out of control, and semi discontent with Life when i m fat

it s not about the compliments u get or the way people look at u
it s the way i c myself

u know it s like when u used to be really good at something and u stop for a couple of years
and then u try to get back on that track and u cant seem to run that 1 mile (when u used to run like 10..or something)
well that s where i m at
+ school isnt that great
i mean i did really well last semester but i m going down hill as we speak!

nb// for all of those who dont know ...never knew...or keep forgetting it s psychology and political science ..yes that s what i m doing in school
and when do i graduate?? I m not sure...it could go anywhere from next xmas to two years...
i know however that i will be taking summer I and i wont go to leb til July or somethg

(on a separate note can u guys try to ignore the repetitive use of the word 'somethg' in this email?thanks i appreciate it...)

other than that
i m currently all about postal service and notwist
two separate bands
two very similar types of music
u guys should give it a shot
i love it!!!
absolutely love Postal Service


u guys should definitely buy the cd..or most likely download the whole cd and LISTEN to it
and i mean all of it...it s as good as coldplay's 2nd cd ...u know?u just put in it..and 4get about it
....it s also a good study cd

haslo
i m happy
all in all
i am happy
what about u guys?
are u ok
what s going
hoda for real what s up in ur world?
well actually i dont want to discriminate ..for the exception of Mona and Azzouz (with whom i have also yet to catch up on lost time...)
i m just completely out of the loop with u all Carla, Farah, MARYA

so u guys should all write!!!
k
love u though...a lot.

trop trop
ciao bellaz

joyce